My Workout for the Night

Well, as promised I stood by my word and went for another go of Zumba. I don’t know, but for some unapparent reason the devil just seems to have a hold on me. Now, I know many of you are probably saying that I’m making up excuses, but no, that’s really not the case. I was actually trying to do my thing and workout to the Zumba dvd when all of a sudden when the dvd switched over to the Salsa part of the workout.  the dvd decided to take a turn for the worse and started skipping like an old Cd in a Cd player.

My first thought was oh no, not again. The skipping of the dvd lead to the entire computer freezing so, by this point I’m just like okay its time for me to just call it a night and start back tomorrow. When something went through me and said, no I’m not going to let this devil defeat me and keep me from exercising tonight. So after I went through the hole bit of using task manager to shutdown windows media player and took the time to pop out the dvd from the cd-rom drive and then, clean the dvd; pop it back into cd-rom drive and finally yes, finally I was able to get my exercise in for the night.

Zumba Fitness & Me

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Well, you guys I finally decided to give up and give in. I said, that I have to give Zumba a try once again. Tonight was the first time in a while since I picked up my Zumba Fitness Dvd set. Sadly to say I didn’t last a good 13 or 14 minutes before I came to the realization that the cardio party is not for me!!!

So, in coming to the not so new realization I’ve now, decided to just do the 20 minute workout. The 20 minute workout is so much easier  its like taking candy from a baby.  The 20 minute workout is pretty much like the basic work out easy breezy. In fact, that’s exactly want I was doing in the beginning when I had  lost  most of my weight was the basic & 20 minute workout dvds.

D’oh! ( in my Homer Simpson voice ha ha. ) Call me slow, but I wonder why I never thought of this before. Gosh all the time wasted on trying to become advanced before my time. Thankfully I live, yet to see another day. Hopefully tomorrow will be a brighter and more successful day

Me inside The thoughts of my Head

This is girl trapepd inside the fat suit

Lately, I have done a lot of thinking about getting my shit together. I’ haven’t been doing a lot of things that I was doing in the beginning when I started out on this weight loss journey.  Such as Zumba. I think that I just basically got tired of trying to make my body do something that it couldn’t do. I also thing that  it kind of sucks that I have to depend on my mom so much simply because I don’t drive. I want to go back to the Lakeshore Foundation and go for brief workout in the pool. Especially since our heat pump is currently out of whack. I feel like I need a good pick me up, or something. I have a goal that I want to reach. I want to be slimmer for my graduation, but at the rate that I’m losing weight its like taking forever. Now, I know that I didn’t arrive where I’m at today overnight,but that’s sure as hell what it feels like. I used to tell myself that I was just stuck in a fat suit and that the zipper was caught up in the suit some kind of way keeping me trapped. Keeping me from revealing my true self. If only someone could take a pin and stick inside the suit and I would fly like a balloon when all the gas is realised from it and I would be totally free.

At one point I was actually starting to think that it was cool to be a larger size young woman. I looked up to Monique when she was a bigger luscious woman. I would say gosh if she can make being big, beautiful, and luscious work then, so can I.  Then, when her movie PHAT GIRLZ came out omg  I began to think that maybe I was living in the wrong country. I felt like maybe I need to hop my big ass over to Africa where I can be treated like a thick madam. You know a place where the size of the woman is appreciated, but how soon did I have to come back down to reality. For one I’ve never been on a plane a day in my life, and two I had to worry about if I was going to be able to fit my big ass in those small ass seats.  After, that African mean started blown up my yahoo messenger account. I was like Yeah Boy!( in my Flavor Flav voice.) Then, again that was another damn bust. All those men from Nigeria were nothing but con artists trying to get a damn  green card, visa  to come to the United States.

I’ve even came to the point where I began to question myself well, damn what is it?  I’m I setting my standards to high ? because these men aren’t making the cut, or is it true about what I’ve been told for years that men don’t like larger women. I actually was starting to believe that, and I still do.

After the last guy that I spent three long as years getting to know just disappeared into thin air. I declared that I wasn’t going to get close to another man until I got my shit together. I’m still working on it. As of this moment I just look at some of these find men that I see when I do go shopping or anything. Which reminds me just the other day I was in Family Dollar in Fairfield, Alabama when I was standing by a buggy just talking to my mom. When suddenly this guy walked up and said, excuse me are you using this buggy. I told him no, I wasn’t using it. Now, I’m thinking that was supposed to have been the end of the conversation. So he tried it again, and said, are you using this buggy,but before I could say something my mom jumped in and was like no, she’s not using the buggy,but she can use you. After my mom said, that he was like oh I’m taken already. These men are such a trip.

My tip for the day would be. To love and respect yourself. Don’t lose weight, or whatever the case may be for you( just to get a man.) Men will be here until it’s the end of the world. Learn to look within yourself to find yourself to find your self-worth. Don’t be in a rush (I’m stilling learning this one.) When we rush things we often get the very worst of things. Be patient. (I’m still learning that one too.) God is taken us on this Journey for a reason. If a man, or woman is in your life one day, and then gone the next, that just mean it’s not your season. It’s not your time to receive the blessings that  God has in store for you. Last, but certainly not least. Always be true to yourself. If you can’t be honest with yourself first then, hell you can’t be honest with anyone. If you don’t take anything else from reading this. Know that God loves you and I love you too. We’re all queens waiting on our kings, but until that time comes I’m keeping my heart under lock and key and focusing more on me and reaching my weight loss goals.

A fat girl’s remorse

Lately, I know I haven’t blogged about  my weight loss status as of late. The last time I went to the doctor I gained five pounds. I think it was due to my water weight. Since the last couple of days of March I haven’t been doing the things that I was doing before which  at one point was a huge success  for me. I was dropping pounds like a fat rat. One week it was 3 to five pounds. The next following week I went back to the doctor I lost 11 pounds. I lost a total of 25 pounds like a swoosh of  wind in the winter time.  I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’m just honestly down in the slumps. The last week of March I had my final exams, therefore I didn’t do my Zumba work out none that week. Up to this point I’m tired of Zumba. I’m a perfectionist. If I can’t get something right the first time or within the first couple of tries I’m pissed off. With that being said, the plan is for me to get back to the original fatty girl workout which is standing i dancing to the music in my ear. I normally listen to a lot of songs that have good beats and a lot of bass in it. Something to really get me moving. I tell myself okay, you know you haven’t gotten any exercise in  quit a while, then on top of that I’ll end up saying ok I’ll just set the alarm clock on myself phone to wake me up. Now, I’m asuming you already know what I’m about to say next, yeah the alarm clock woke me up, but once I heard it I flipped over and hit the dismiss button. Before I’ve got to this point I felt as if I could have lost more than this with the way that I was working out in the beginning.

 In essence of today being Monday morning. I need to prepare myself for Tuesday’s doctor visit. I honestly do not want to go,but I have too because I missed my appointment on last week. With this in mind I’m going to get up off my ass this week and workout more. Only if I could change back the hands of time. I sure as hell would do a lot of things different.

What is Zumba Fitness ?

My Zumba Fitness Package that came through Mail

Zumba fitness is a fitness dance exercise program that keeps everyone motivated by creating a party like atmosphere. Zumba instructors will take their students through a combination of dance steps such as merengue, reggaetone and salsa. Zumba also incorporates fitness exercises such as bicep curls, knee lifts and squats. Zumba fitness is mostly about “booty shaking” dance moves that makes everyone laugh, smile and let loose!

Zumba Music

Zumba music uses mostly Latin rhythms but does contain other upbeat music from swing all the way to calypso. Zumba is all about the music is probably the most important element in the class. A really great Zumba fitness class is one at which you can “feel the music in you.” Having those incredible exercise moves and dance steps are just a bonus of course it would not be Zumba without the toe tapping, hip swiveling music that grabs you and just makes you want to get up and move. The music does make Zumba.

The essence or key to Zumba is truly the music and the single most important element of the class. An excellent Zumba class is one in which you “feel the music”. The dance steps and exercise moves are just a plus, but it would not be Zumba without the sizzling, toe tapping, hip swiveling music that makes you just want to get up and move! The music makes it Zumba.

How Did Zumba Start

Alberto Beto Perez is a professional dancer and fitness trainer from Colombia South America. Beto is the creator of the Zumba concept. As the story goes one day he forgot to bring his aerobics music to his class and improvised by grabbing some Latin tapes that he had in his car. At first people didn’t know what to do so he just told him to move. That class became a big hit and soon was in huge demand. It was originally named “Rumbacize.” As soon as Beto arrived in the United States in 1999 he was approached by two entrepreneurs, Alberto Perlman and Alberto Aghion. They changed the name to “Zumba” and began selling the idea worldwide. By 2002 the first Zumba fitness videos and DVDs were being sold. And at the same time Zumba began training instructors.

By 2008 Zumba had 20,000 trained Zumba instructors in over 35 countries and had sold millions of Zumba DVDs. In 2009 that number has swelled to 35,000 instructors and trainers. And there has been recently a growing trend towards buying Zumba fitness clothing it seems Zumba is making an impact not only in the aerobics in dancing communities but in fashion itself.

via Zumba Fitness.