My Life as an Obese Person

Since December 8th 2010 when I first joined the UAB Eat right program. I have learned that working out can be fun instead of a grueling death trap. Once I signed all the proper paper work that needed to be signed I was told that I had to meet with a nutritionist, a fitness coach, and a behaviorist. Once I heard this news it was kind of like eh whatever due to the fact that I had been through all of this previously and none of my problems were solved. I assumed that I was going to get the say results this time, but I guessed wrong. The one thing that I didn’t like though was talking to the Behaviorist she made it seem as if  I’m trying to commit suicide  due to the simple fact that I’m overweight. She began asking questions like do I eat all day and when I do eat am I able to stop myself from eating when I’m full or had enough to eat.  She also wanted to know if I tend to eat when I’m under stress or depressed. I told her it depends on what the situation is, but for the life of me I don’t know why people think that obese people are overweight due to eating food every hour on the hour.  In some cases that’s true, but not everyone eats one huge plate of eggs or five to six pounds of bacon, and a big plate of rice or grits for breakfast. There are many reasons why people are overweight maybe it’s a medical condition, or inherited from family traits and genes. The next time I had a meeting with her I messed up by being open and honest with her as to why I’m not happy. I told her that I’m longing for love; for a relationship, marriage ,and kids ,but due to my weight I have basically  already missed that boat until I’m able to conquer losing weight.  Not having experienced loved yet, makes one seem to second guess them like what is that I don’t have that he or she has.  Society has people thinking that only one look is in and that’s thin. Wrong! God created all of his children to be all shapes, sizes, and color. I thought beauty was in the eye of the beholder maybe I’m the one that’s wrong. Being obese and over weight is hard. I hear plenty of times at the eat right program that I along with the other members of the program should tell a family member, a friend, or co-worker about our optifast meals to gain some sort of support system. I don’t know who in their right mind frame would tell their co-workers that they are on a diet. Who wants to have people looking at you and watching your every move as well as watching what you eat. I mean honestly who wants to be the laughing stock at work. I know I sure as hell don’t want to be that person. Just getting up out of the bed and eating a shake, or eating a bar, or drinking a soup in a timely manner every three to two hours six to seven times a day for twelve weeks straight when you’re used to eating regular food is hard. Trust me when I tell you it really in truly is hard, but it takes a good support system, hard work, determination, dedication, and motivation. I already have a good support system, but my determination is to get healthy. To finally be able to walk into a plus sized store and be able to find me a sexy outfit without having to go to the super plus sized section, or having to shop at a local men’s clothing store because the local women’s clothing store doesn’t having anything to fit me. To finally be in love and go on a first date (I’m dreaming of that moment lol.)  I want to be able to go places without having people stare at me like I’m some type of freak, or a butt ugly thing from outer space. To finally be called the correct sex. That really pisses me the hell off being called a damn man all the time. Have you ever seen a (real) man wearing hoops as big as mine?  Hello people check the throat no Adams apple duh!!! I just don’t understand people some of ya’ll really need to get it together.  My dedication is working out every night with Zumba fitness. Going to the gym as well as jumping in the swimming pool every Monday and Friday. My motivation is to be able to walk across the stage come  June 20th, 2011 with  my graduating class of Virginia College at Birmingham with the rest of my class and be able to cross my legs and say I finally did it !